Hi Sweetheart! It's 5 years and it still stinks. I keep asking why..why and why did this have to happen to us? You were such a good... wonderful son who only did good things and God ends up calling you home. I still cannot believe this happened. I never will understand. We had your memorial service tonight and it was nice but at the end of the night you still wonder why. Who would ever have dreamed that I would be sending balloons up to Heaven for my now 23 year old son? I hate to question the Almighty One because I need to get to Heaven to see you but it really frustrates me when I see what it did to our family. The last 5 years were missing out on this good time and that good time and I sort of figure the rest of my life will be the same. I hope and pray your at peace and having a great time. Alot of people have joined you so I can only imagine your having fun. I will never never forget the love we shared Heath. Time will never take away our memories only makes it one day closer to seeing you! I love you with my whole heart what is left and we will keep honoring your memory! Goodnight honey I miss you! Love mom
You taught me 1 or 2 things about the computer which I wrote down and reference often. I sure wish I had more of your skills and knowledge I could surely use it.
Happy Halloween! Another Halloween without you, just stinks. We put orange lights on you tree and planted white mums @ your memorial site. It looked nice. Got a scarecrow just for your site. Olivia and us did a pumpkin and that was all we really put out. I just can't get into the holidays anymore without you, honey. Bob, me and Pap got masks to scare Olivia. She did not like it at all. Pap got a mask like your Jason mask. No one will wear your mask honey, that was you. I really miss those times. I know it might be trivial to others, but to me it means the world. I will always remember those times, Heath, and wish we could have had more. Although you are now 23, I know you would still be out doing something...probably wearing your Jason mask and jersey. I love you and miss you, honey and I am soo glad I have wonderful memories to think about! Love you always, Mom
I Know I haven't been around much the past few years but Lori and I are coming home for good. Our house is for sale here in NC. So tell your mom I will be back to help with your bowling tournment. I miss you and my memories are always fresh in my mind.
Honey, I hope you had a wonderful day today. We all had cake and ice cream and Olivia sent you a balloon. Ally stopped by and Mrs. O'Connor called to sent her remembrances. We planted flowers at your tree and fountain area. How do you celebrate a birthday without the recipient, especially when it is your child? We went through the motions and honored you, honey, but for me there is no joy or happiness. I wanted to see you open presents and see your happy face and excitement as always. Getting flowers, lighting candles and writing tributes is not what I had hoped for, but this is what I am faced with now. It really don't matter what I do, your not here with us physically and I miss that more than anyone can imagine. Heath, my heart hurts just at the thought of you and the mention of your name. This is NOT what life should be like. I am sooo thankful and glad we spoiled you when you were here. We will be celebrating your birthday and honoring you next year and the next and I will probably be writing the same things. Until the day I can hug you and give you kisses, there will be hurt and not much joy. I miss you and love you more then you ever imagined (I hope you knew). Rest In Peace Honey, and Happy Birthday! Love Mom
Happy Birthday Hun! It is a beautiful day out. We just had cake and ice cream for your birthday. I will give you your present in you scholarship account tomorrow during a business day. It is soon that time again to have your legacy given to another individual. Ally was just here too! I hope you to reunite in many years to come. Until then, I love you and miss you dearly.
Roses are Red, Violets are Blue, although Valentines Day has past, I still love you !
I didn't get to send you an e-mail on Saturday because I still don't have internet at home, don't laugh. But I am sure that you saw that Olivia and I delivered your valentine on Saturday to your tree. We both love you and miss you.
Today when love fills the air, my thoughts are with you Heath! What I would give to hug you and tell you how much I love you and what you meant to me. My heart is filled with so much sadness anymore and missing you. I used to have a heart of gold and happiness, now it is just blah and everything is a chore. I continue to go on and celebrate, but it is not the same. I hate it that I cannot be my true self anymore, but that is life. I will continue to love you, miss you and mourn you and do whatever is in my power to honor you. You are always on my mind and in my heart Heath, and it is with all my love in my heart for you, that I give it to you, on this Valentine's Day! Love, Mom
Happy New Year Heath! This is just a grim reminder of another year without you. The holidays used to always be happy, but not anymore. We didn't stay up to watch the ball drop, to tired. We will have our pork and sauerkraut today, as usual. I hope you saw the sky lite up with all the fireworks as other people celebrated. You would have had a good view. My New Years Resolution will be to continue to honor your memory and keep your memory alive. For as hard as it is to live without you, it helps to surround myself with your memories and doing things for you. I long to see signs from you or feel your presence. While I will always love you and miss you, Heath, you are alive in my heart and mind. Happy New Year Honey and God Bless You! Love, Mom
Hi Honey! Well it's the 4th Christmas that we had to celebrate without you. For as much as I loved Christmas, it has really changed. Personally, I could care less now. You loved Christmas too, and were like a little kid anticipating your presents. It was always exciting getting your list and usually making sure you got everything. I save money now, wow, but it certainly is not worth the sadness and heartache that goes with it. I know you got the best present of all...your with Jesus. We went up to sis, had dinner and watched Olivia open her presents. She is really a little sweetheart, Heath! I love her dearly. She saw your picture on the placemats and said "Heathie". Why God called you home, I still can't understand. Everything would be perfect with you here, but now it will never be. I do my best to make it perfect for sis and Olivia, because I love them too, the same way I love you, but we all know the sorrow that hides behinds the laughter. I am working on your calendars today, and that way I am sharing Christmas with you too. I will always love you and miss you Heath and look forward to the day we will be together! Love, Mom
It is another Christmas without you opening gifts. It is not the same. I have this beautiful life and I think how fortunate I am, and how thankful I should be, and I truly am, however, it will never be perfect. I have had one thing go wrong in my life and it has prevented by from having the perfect life ever again. I cry out of happiness for Olivia and the blessings that I have, and I cry out of saddness of missing you. I know I have been so blessed to have had you in my life and that it why it hurts so bad. I must say, I found cool ornaments for you this year, I can't wait to hang them on your tree tonight. I hope you really like them. I stopped to talk to your dad, he wasn't there, but I need to make peace. So much has been said out of hurt, and it is not fair to you, to me or to him. I want to move on in peace, because no matter what we personally feel, we all love you. May there be peace in the new year and I hope to someday see how you celebrate the holidays in heaven.
Another holiday without you...it just stinks! But on this holiday I am thankful for many things, one of which is YOU! For 18 years there was alot of joy and happiness, with so many wonderful memories. Now, it's sadness, but I look at your pictures and think of many different things and sometimes I smile with good thoughts and then there are thoses times where I could just scream and go crazy. Don't worry Heath, we will have placemats with your face on, so you will still be with us, just not like we would want it. You will always be in my everyday living, and I know for a fact, there is NO day that goes by that I don't mention your name. I love you and miss you and always will and you will always be part of my daily routine! God Bless You Honey! Love Mom
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